Greetings, my name is Ray. I work as a real estate salesperson for a company where I have encountered a large number of people, but there is one individual whom I particularly like. He was my customer and he possesses a friendly appearance. Until one day, there was an endeavor that required our collaboration. And we got to know each other better, with him being quite forthcoming with me. He discussed his personal issues with me. He didn’t reveal whether he had a family or not (I don’t know if this was intentional or not). After that, we grew closer until we fell in love. We have been in a relationship for six months. I was in a constant state of happiness until an unexpected event occurred.

Well, he has a family already. I decided to end our relationship. In the end, however, he was able to reconcile with me by claiming, among other things, that he has family issues, is on the verge of divorcing his wife, and wants to live with me. I chose to believe these falsehoods and reconcile with him. That time, I confess that I chose to conceal his wife by having an affair with him, and I was very pleased until I allowed my mind to accept that this was also acceptable. What more could anyone want than to be surrounded by their loved ones? But in the end, it’s not how I envisioned it, because sometimes I want to be his “one and only” as well, because simply existing is a form of pleasure.

When his wife found out, I was struck and denounced, and physical attacked, which devastated my entire existence. But I still believe that he will choose me in the end. But for a “Mistress” like me, who will never be accepted by society, his wife arranged a meeting for me to negotiate one day. Despite all of that, I remained confident that he would pick me. I therefore gave him an ultimatum: if he does not divorce his wife, I will end our relationship. And he ultimately made his decision. 

His decision astounded me. He ultimately chose his family, which included his wife and him only. For all the times that I was merely a time-pass, my life is currently devastated. Since I have lost both my colleagues and my acquaintances, I have no one left. I want to tell everyone in the same situation as me to cease. Mistresses are always mistresses. You will never become the one and only. I am grateful for the experience, it taught me how to love judiciously, and to not enter a toxic relationship like this ever again.